Weekends are better...

"Feeling are much like waves, we can't keep them from coming but we can choose which ones to surf."

For some reason since Jack has been diagnosed with CF, I feel like weekends are "emotionally easier."

Jack spent this past weekend with his Daddy, I always miss him but this weekend it was a lot different. For the past few months Jack and I have spent countless hours together trying to figure all this out. The waiting at Doctor Offices, Hospitals or even just driving, has given Jack and I some amazing bonding time (not that we were lackin :) anyway, I think I've just gotten comfortable with him literally hanging on me! As a Mom, even when you trust the Man you are sharing your child with, it is hard to let go. Rather it be for a few hours or for the weekend, it's still hard. I will admit sometimes I get to the point where I say "I NEED A BREAK" but a few short minutes after they walk out the door I begin to miss them! This weekend was sooooo relaxing and nice, thanks to some much needed one on one time with my Husband whom I ADORE! By Sunday morning we had Jaden and Jensen home with us and the count-down was on for Jack to come home. I swear what was an hour seemed more like 10 hours. I kept myself busy doing the very thing my Mom used to tell me "NEVER DO" *I was wishing time away* Then all of a sudden it was 8pm and my beautiful baby walked thru the door, hugged me and said "I missed you Mama" that was it. My home was now complete, my Husband and Children all home, safe and happy. The only sad part, it was all just in time for the weekend to end. The good part... we were together!

The reason I feel weekends are less emotional, there are NO clinics, NO test results, NO office visits etc. It almost feels like all of this is a dream. And then... in the middle of NO WHERE, Monday comes and dangles "worry," "confusion" and "sadness" from a string, right in front of your face.

We are looking forward to NEXT weekend but in the meantime, we are patiently waiting for more test results. We are looking forward to answers and a treatment plan.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you... each and everyone of you that have: thought about us, cared about us, checked on us, prayed for us, cooked for us, babysat for us, spoiled us and loved us! We knew we had great people in our lives but we never imagined how many. For those of you I have not responded to nor answered your calls, please don't be offended. I appreciate EVERYTHING!

"The smallest act of kindness is worth more than the grandest intention."

Until next time...LOVES to all,
The Mama